It's November

It's kind of recharging my batteries by going for a Halloween weekend at Genting.

Now it's time for me to charge myself forward more ahead... It's November and only 2 months left for this year.

Darran asked me whether have I improved this year, I told him I don't think I have improved. In fact, it's been a year of self-realisation, and that self-realisation comes too late. Though everyone said that it's not too late to know how much it has gone wrong my education path had been, I felt I should have realise all these at the age of 16, the crucial age of taking O-Levels, rather than at a maturing age of 23, when until now then I realise that I should have strived harder to undergo my higher education at a local university like NTU/NUS.

Yeah, this year's my regrets and emotions over my failed education path had affected soo much soo that it led me to destructions of some friendships, no thanks to my emotions and my inferiority.

2010's gonna be a struggle, financial struggles perhaps. But it has to be a year of redemption, where I fucking need to breakthrough and score victories in my studies this time round, as well as continuing to rebuild friendships... Friendships that should have been...

Time to push myself to chant at least 1 hour of fighting daimoku each day from this month onwards. I definitely must show actual proofs and achieve deserving happiness.

No Matter What

I had started to listen Boyzone songs once again... Those days of teenage pop, those days of boyband era, had accompanied me through my (upper) Primary and Secondary school days.

Just like other then-popular boybands like Backstreet Boys, N-Sync and Westlife, Boyzone gave us quite a number of classic love songs, like "Love me for a reason", "Baby can I hope you", "No Matter What"...While the main vocal of the band, Ronan Keating, had curved out a much successful solo career after the initial split of the band, the boyband had been making a comeback and held much highly-successful comeback concerts in UK and Ireland since last year. Unfortunately, one of its members had passed away suddenly just yesterday.

Stephen Gately, though somehow a controversial figure due to his sexuality, was the 2nd main vocal of the band and with an amazing voice, despite not having a successful solo career just like Ronan. I was shocked to hear of the news of his death through Yahoo! News and once again, yet another celebrity had left the world this year.

Nevertheless, he and Boyzone had contributed a kind of pop culture in the 1990s and early 2000s, and their songs will always been remembered and be heard, just like the ones of MJ.

R.I.P Stephen Gately.

Announcement

Well, I have created a 2nd blog and therefore, some of the recent posts have been moved as these are the posts that are related to the theme of the blog.

Note: This current blog will still be in use.

防盗锁

说穿了不是什么大事情
说穿了不过自己去看电影
说穿了只是睡醒看不到你
你放心离去 我不要紧

为什么莫名有种矛盾的情绪
给了你祝福又盼望你回心转意
他给的幸福你从笑容就能说明
我还凭什么关心 怎么你不抗拒

感情没有防盗锁 爱走不到尽头
不后悔付出过 各自回家的路试着不再难过
变得成熟 是我能安慰自己唯一的收获
就离开我 别回过头
不要用从前看以后

我猜是我的错 爱怎么被偷走
那只是个感受 如果离开是爱你最后的承诺
多年以后偶尔记得那疯狂不成熟的我
不说穿了 不要结果

不伪装了 我的难过

最后的风度

没有人介入 所有人觉得你该满足
我把心血全都付出 你为何想要哭
为你作主 让你受到我的保护
可是你像受苦 到底是谁难以相处
我给你幸福 你问我什么才是幸福
这个问题 反而让我把你看个清楚
你怕束缚 我的爱没能把你驯服
你没有退路 那倒不如爽快结束

就让你见识我的风度 你离开我要不要庆祝
我不怕爱的残酷 反正我很想跳舞
我最喜欢挑战孤独 我也爱放下包袱
没有谁 我也不舍得哭
我 我不在乎

你觉得痛苦 我倒不愿意为爱受苦
只有这样 我才做到 对你的背叛宽恕
想你幸福 想不到分手你才幸福
是谁的错误 我不认输 我忍得住

就让你见识我的风度 你离开我要不要庆祝
我不怕爱的残酷 反正我很想跳舞
我最喜欢挑战孤独 我也爱放下包袱
没有谁 我也不舍得哭
我没有空在乎
就让你见识我的风度
我忍痛 温柔的祝福
你会一生都记住
我要你铭心刻骨
我最喜欢挑战孤独 我也爱放下了包袱
没有谁 没难度 我最怕哭
爱要爱得投入 却不在乎

You'll Never Walk Alone.

Put my current crisis aside...

Last Sunday was the very first time that I was able to catch a glimpse of the Reds. It was the first time in 8 years that Liverpool visited the Lion City. (Unfortunately, I did not attend the match 8 years ago due to my then-financial-difficulty as a Sec 3 student, while the Reds back then triumphed the then-weaker-and-fewer-foreign-talent Singapore team 2-0, including a goal from now-a-MAN-U-player Michael Owen)

On this day, the wanna-to-be-demolished-and-yet-the-official-last-match-was-2-years-ago Kallang National Stadium was declared as the Kop. It was a day where everyone dressed in Red, with Carlsberg on their shirt(With few have Candy/Crown Paints on their shirts instead), and Adidas/Reebok as the brand. Though everyone was in Red, we were rooting for the away team instead and thus our patriotism for our own country was questioned.

At the end of the 90 minutes, Liverpool trounced the Lions by 5 goals, with a brace from their youngster Kristian Nemeth, as well as their first teamers like Albert Riera, Fernando Torres and came-back-from-loan-and-willing-to-fight-for-a-first-team-place Andriy Voronin. This time, the Reds played more seriously compared to 8 years ago, while I never expect the Lions to lose such a humiliating scoreline, given that Liverpool had played our dear ASEAN rivals, Thailand, to a 1-1 draw in their first match of the tour, while our neighbouring Malaysia lost Man U by respectable scorelines in 2 matches.

While Liverpool showed us that they can be a championship material and challenges Manchester United to the very end, it's just disappointing to see Singapore, packed with quite a number of foreign talents and capturing two consecutive Southeast-Asian titles after the match 8 years ago, gave such a poor display in the second half.

Show us that you all can play football and make these fans like us who love our beloved English clubs more support you too.

TDYWA7th : Everyone deserves a second chance.

Breakdown

I have always never learn.

I have always been a bad chess player, always making the wrong move, too many wrong moves soo much soo that I can't find myself to bounce back.

And just when I thought I can move on and let time heals, some bit*h just added some salts into the wounds...

I have already enough of soo much unhappiness for the past 2 months or soo... from my studies to my relationships with friends...

And now I don't know how am I going to say sorry to her... sincerely. The nail had finally pinned on the coffin...once again.

And I don't know how's the future should go... I just hate to see my life being in a running track, with vicious karmas running round and round again.

这次，全世界是真的...停了电。